Friday, February 27, 2015

And Now I Am a Full-time Mommy...Without the Full-time Job on the Side!

Nearly four years ago, Kelly came by my house with exciting news--he got a good job. Even better? So did I! My first full-time, post-college job with the University of Georgia's Main Library. We both started our new chapters on June 2, 2011. For us, it meant the first tangible step towards being able to get married and build a home and family together.

Today, my chapter is ending. I am writing from my desk for the last time, and boy--the feelings. I can't even articulate all of the emotions I have. I have the best coworkers imaginable. They have been my sounding board, my guidance counselors, my lunch dates, and my cheerleaders.I really could not create better people if I was in charge! And my boss.... Daron Mitchell should be on the cover of magazines, winning awards every week! She is that amazing. You know you are good when your employee's family members are commenting on how good you are. Leaving this job has been the hardest decision I have ever made. And I've faced down some tough stuff.

I am terrified, relieved, apprehensive, exhausted, excited, grateful--just to name a few!

I have had a few good cries and wallowed in my misery a bit, but I know in my heart that being home with my baby girl is THE most important thing right now. I know it is the best life choice I could make for her, and I cannot express how grateful I am that her daddy agrees and is willing to take on the brunt of caring for our family financially. He told me several months ago that he needs my job to be taking care of our babies and our home. It may seem like I am stepping back into the 1950's, but I really agree with him. I know our family is going to benefit in ways in which money cannot compensate. I am thankful that I made such a wise choice in a life partner, and we are blessed to be able to make this choice for our family.

I have prayed and prayed and fretted and prayed some more over this change in my life. I continue to pray and ask for God to open new doors for me and give me the wisdom to recognize them. With a grateful, humble heart, I leave UGA and my work family today looking forward to what the future holds for Kelly, our babies, and me. And from the bottom of my heart, thank you to everyone who has been a part of our journey thus far.